Jennifer!!! The humiliation continues...

I've written about a couple of weekends where the son of my girlfriends best friend from high school has stayed over to be able to visit his old friends (since they had moved about 60-70 miles away).

In those previous visits Miss got pretty comfortable calling me Jennifer in front of him, and verbally humiliating me in various ways, making it clear to him in doing so that she's the "Boss" and I'm the wimpy "pussy whipped" submissive slave.

On my way home from work Friday afternoon (an almost 3 hour commute thanks to someone threatening to jump off a freeway overpass), my girlfriend sent me a text message that her friend had stopped in with her son and one of her daughters, and that she had invited them to stay for dinner.

So I let her know my ETA, and eventually I arrived home.

I walk in the door, and before I can even say hello to anyone Miss yells out at the top of her lungs something along the lines of - "HI JENNIFER! HOW WAS YOUR DAY JENNIFER? JEN-JEN-JEN-JEN-JENNIFER!!!!!"

Leave it to say that I am totally shocked, embarrassed and speechless. Her friend and kids are looking at me with ear-to-ear, nearly-laughing out loud smiles, really enjoying her humiliation of me this way. I think her friend couldn't hold back the laughter, and she let out a few of those choked back laughs, the ones that come from the chest that you just can't hold back.

So I just try to move on and ignore what just happened. I think Miss asked me some kind of rhetorical question just to force me to react and speak and become even more embarrassed.

I tell her I love her, say hello to everyone else in the most meek, I-gotta-get-outta-here fashion, tell everyone I'll be right back out, and then head to the bedroom to change into some shorts.

In comfortable clothes now, I walk back into the living room where her friend and her kids are. My girlfriend is in the kitchen cooking at this point.

While unfortunately I'm not very good at starting or carrying casual conversation, I know that I need to be social so I stop in the living room to chat.

Almost the first thing I notice is her girlfriend is checking out my shaved legs! More embarrassment as I don't know if she's going to say anything (she didn't). Her friend's son had noticed them on his prior visits, and I know that the subject had come up when Miss had visited at her friend's house. So basically her entire family knew this, and I'm sure that they had a great laugh about it.

Miss continued to call me Jennifer all night long, so I guess that's how she will address me in this company. That will keep me in my place for sure :-)

My first public outing en-femme!

My desire to go out in public en-femme was finally satisfied Saturday, and boy it was awesome!

I had first thought that a trip to a local beach would be a good starter, walking the boardwalk and maybe the pier too. 

I had planned to wear some type of skirt or dress, white sandals, a wig with a hat, and sunglasses which would do a lot to hide my face, which is my top insecurity about being detected.

My girlfriend was concerned that "locals" might "kick my ass" if any were to notice me. So as an alternative I thought what about Santa Monica / Venice beach? There is a much more diverse crowd there, and I thought let's check that out. Optimistically I would think there is a decent chance that other TGs would feel comfortable there, based on what I remember of the "scene" in years past from visiting my Grandmother (even though that must have been over 15 years ago). I just remember all kinds of different types of people on the boardwalk letting it all hang out. From what a remember I feel that even if people were to notice me I'd be at the low end of the spectrum of their interest due to all the other interesting people and goings on.

Unfortunately the weather Saturday ended up being unseasonably cool and cloudy. There probably wouldn't be many people there (which would not be as good for blending in), and maybe sunglasses and a hat wouldn't be so appropriate for the weather.

Not wanting to give up on a rare opportunity for this first time experience, we had an errand to run to get a cracked cell phone screen repaired that we could take care of. At this point I'm just looking for any excuse to go out as a girl :-)

So I made my second attempt at gluing on my breast forms. Depending on if this worked or not would dictate what type of outfits I could wear. I was REALLY hoping this would work. My first attempt the prior week was a failure. I was hoping that the glue would work as I had read, that I would not need to wear a bra to hold them up. But the glue didn't hold on that first try. I did some more searching for suggestions and read that I needed to let the glue dry for 5 minutes or so before applying the forms to my chest. I think that was the key, as this time IT WORKED!

I proceeded to do my makeup, trying a new technique for putting on foundation I came across that seemed to work a lot better than how I had been doing it before. Nice!

I had put out all my clothes in piles on the bed to make it easier to pick out and try on something to wear.  I tried a couple of things on, but my girlfriend suggested I try on a pink strapless dress with a tube-top like material on the top. 

I thought that it was way to bright for me to wear out, and that it seemed to "young" looking for me. But she reassured me that it was summer and totally ok to wear something bright and pink, so I went with it.

We didn't get a full length picture of me in the dress, but I did find one online. (I didn't wear it with a belt.)

I make a call to the repair place and they say it will take an hour to finish. They are about 20-30 minutes away, so that means we will have some time to kill while we wait. 

Getting into the car was quite something - the dress was so short! Ohhh sexy! If anyone saw me getting into the car they probably got a peek at my pink panties! And sitting in the car the dress was maybe just 2 or 3 inches below my crotch. That was such a thrill! I was hoping that people in tall vehicles would be looking down to check me out as we were driving :-) 

We get to the repair place and my girlfriend takes the phone in while I wait in the car. Drop off completed, we drive off.

Now I'm thinking what can we do where I'll have a reason to get out of the car, in a good & safe situation? 

The car needs gas and washing, so I drive around looking for a gas station with a self-service drive-through car wash. Amazing that we didn't find one! There were full service ones but I wasn't comfortable trying that just yet.

We ended up stopping for gas anyway. Getting out of the car I appreciated feeling the cool breeze up and around my legs. OMG so stimulating!!!!

I'm really enjoying being outside. I'm looking around and just beaming with joy! I lean over to talk to my girlfriend completely aware that if anyone checks me out they are probably getting a good peek up my dress. Either me or her point out that possibility. I turn back to the pump and "accidentally" drop my keys. I bend over to pick them up (the car door is open so she would get a good look), but she isn't looking so she didn't notice :-(

At this point I'm thinking, should I go into the little gas station mini-mart and buy something? There isn't anyone else around at the moment so it would just be the clerk. I'd keep my sunglasses on and even if the clerk noticed it would be a quick in and out. Unfortunately I was too nervous and didn't go through with it. If my girlfriend had thought of it I would probably had the courage to do it. That's ok - this was my first time out. I need to build confidence to put myself out there more and that will happen with time.

Here is what I looked like in the car. You can see just a bit of the dress.

Oooh, and that night I got to wear a very sexy clingy black negligee without a bra! That has been on my wish-list ever since it occurred to me that it might be possible to glue those boobies on!

It was just an amazing amazing day! And it was so cool to be able to be with my girlfriend doing this!

Your bra straps are showing

For those in the US, I hope you all had a great 4th of July!

We had a great day, smoking ribs, swimming, and so on. I'll write a post with more about that soon.

But to start of our day, we needed to pickup a few things first, so of course I would be wearing a bra under my boy shirt for the trip. This is pretty much standard with Miss, that I'll be wearing a bra when we're out. She's told me several times that she likes how apprehensive and self-conscious I am when there is a chance that someone will notice I am a boy in a bra.

I do try to keep my body constantly oriented to minimize the chance of that, but it's a constant thing when we're in public to have to worry about. And let's face it, in a store with probably 100 or so shopper's in it, some are going to see.

So before we left I asked Miss if my straps were very noticeable. I do this to give her the final say as to how I look going out.

I turned so she could see and she smiled wide & happy and said "Yes they do show! Are you worried?" She answered her own question of course - "TOO BAD!!!!"

Here is what I looked like from the back:

At our first stop it didn't seem that anyone noticed, except I think standing in the checkout line the lady in front of us probably noticed while I had my back to her as I was putting stuff on the checkout conveyor belt.

And at our next one I caught a lady checking me/them out, looking not very sure what to make of it.

Random: We are not alone?

Working in Hollywood everything "off the strip" is a target for graffiti.

Walking back from lunch today I noticed this bit of graffiti on some kind of utility box.

The 'artist' must have been inspired by the heart shape sticker that had been painted over by city or utility maintenance crews to cover up prior graffiti.

I wonder if she or he is one of us dads in panties, or maybe a fan of dads in panties?

Whatever the case it was really cool to see this today :-)

Just been in a nice routine lately

Nothing too exciting to share lately. Miss and I have been having nice relaxing evenings.

With some exceptions I've been dressing casual and comfortable when I get home from work.

I have made a couple of purchases recently. For years I have "augmented" my chest with home-made boobies. I don't remember if Miss came up with the idea or if I did, but we've been making my boobs with a couple of pairs of nude knee-high stockings filled with rice.

It has worked really well, and I have been able to get good shape out of them. When you tie off the ends of the stockings you basically get little raisin-like nipples! And you would think that perspiration would be a real problem for the rice, but it never has been.

So I finally decided to try real breast-forms. Wow what a difference! The feel so much more real! Miss went a little crazy with them. She REALLY likes how I look with them - Sweet!  :-P

Reading the feedback on the site from others that purchased them, I learned that there is medical glue that you can use to glue them on. That immediately got my imagination going.

With fake boobs you pretty much need some type of bra for support. But from one of the comments I read, one person said that the glue was so good that they stayed attached for 3 days, including showers and a lot of heat (and sweat I assume).

So the fantasizing kicked in big-time in my head. If that really is the case then I could have a ton more wardrobe options available!!! Being in an area where summer temps are usually around 90 degrees with weeks in the triple digits, the thought of being able to wear sundresses, camisoles, tank tops, and even tube tops really got me excited!

Oh I sooooo need to buy a tube top if this works out!!!

I ordered the glue and remover from Amazon. But what arrived was 2 of the remover. I chalked that up to a packing mistake, and I ordered just the glue from a different Amazon vendor.

Guess what? I got just the remover again! So at this point I think that somehow Amazon is messed up, probably they have the same part number associated to the separate product descriptions. Anyway, I find the glue from a medical supply vendor online, order it, and it just got here Saturday!

I'm hoping that the 4th of July will give me a chance to try that glue, and wear some clothes that would look much better without a bra - I am so excited! I can't wait!!!

Oh, and I think I need a new bathing suit if this works out. Yummy!