And the Punishment Wheel lands on.... 5 Burns (Mistress to decide where)

Last weekend Miss decided I was due a punishment. That's actually pretty expected, as I'm sure many submissive's can relate :-)

She decided it was time to touch up the heart brands that are on the top of my bikini line, and her "M" initial in the middle of my lower back (also right at the top of where a bikini would be).

Both of those do cause a bit of pain, but she upped the ante and decided she needed to run out and get a pack of cigarettes so she could have a smoke and at the same time enjoy burning my ass and balls. Trust me, that REALLY hurts! I do yell out a bit when she's doing this.

She also took time to use the dildo on me for a while :-P Ohhh that is quite an experience. This is something we haven't done to much but I think she's become more interested in anal fun lately.

She also had me change some of the punishments for the wheel. She added Kneeling On Rice, which she did have me do. Uncomfortable!

She also added Enema (I never have experienced that), and Wear a Butt Plug While Doing Chores. We did stop by the adult toy store and picked up a butt plug so we'd have it for when that punishment comes up. We didn't pick up anything for an enema, I guess we'll have to do that soon.

Oh, we had run out of diapers, but ordered new ones and she had me wear them overnight. They leaked a little during the night.

For anyone reading, please have fun and take care!

jen

Punishment Wheel and Walmart

Last weekend found us making our periodic shopping run to the home improvement store and Walmart.

While at the home improvement store Miss told me to get my phone out so she could use the Punishment Wheel web page I had put up the week before.

The Punishment Wheel:
From time to time I have read blog posts that talk about having a punishment box that has whatever punishments the Mistress sees fit for her sub/sissy/slave written on cards inside.

When it's punishment time either the Mistress or the sub would pull a card out of the box or hat and he would be the lucky recipient of whatever punishment was written on it.  Using this kind of approach provides randomness and unpredictability to the sub in terms of how he might be disciplined.

I made 2 versions of this wheel, one for punishments at home, and another for punishments that are more appropriate while out in public.

And now, back to the to the home improvement store :-)

So I opened up the page to the Punishment Wheel, handed the phone to her, and she spun it.

The punishment was that I had to take a woman's clothing item to the dressing room and try it on:

We finish up at the home improvement store and head to Walmart.

During our shopping Miss had picked out a pink blouse for herself. We head to the dressing room area (it's for both women and men) but she doesn't like the look of some of the other men that are waiting there for their significant others so we continue shopping. She does try to be as careful as can be to avoid situations where someone might create a scene in a bad way.

Of course since she spun the wheel, I've been a nervous wreck worrying about how this is going to go down.

We get back to the dressing room area and she's good with what she sees so she sends me off on my own to try it on.

I start my walk to the counter where a woman clerk is standing waiting to help people. She isn't busy at the moment so she looks up at me as I'm walking. I am really worried about how she might react.

I'm holding the pink top in both of my hands as I near the counter. I had "balled it up" in an attempt to hide what it was, but I think that due to its rich pink color she knew it was not guy clothes, or anything that a guy would in a million years be interested in trying on.

The clerk asks how can she help me as soon as I approach her, like I was going to ask a question about the clothing in my hand. I told her, in what I think was a pretty awkward and nervous sounding voice that I wanted to go into the dressing room to try on "one item".

She repeated "Dressing room?" to me like she didn't hear it clearly, or didn't believe me. I said "Yes, one item please".

She hands me the little door hang sign that has a "1" on it to indicate how many items I was taking in, and she has to check a couple of doors to make sure she's putting me in a room that's empty. I was soo so embarrassed and exposed at this point.

She finds a room, opens the door for me, and I thank her as I go in and try it on.

Luckily she was away from the counter when I finally came out!

Ohhh this was hard to do!

Humiliation with her best friend's son - take 2

So a lot sooner than I would have expected, Miss's best friend's son was back over this past weekend.

The friend that he came to visit is moving out of state after graduation, and this might be his last chance to see him before he goes.

I get home from work Friday night and they are in the kitchen. Miss wasted absolutely zero time before starting the humiliation. She started it right off the bat!

As I walk in she yells in the loudest voice I can remember hearing "JENNIFER!!!!!!!" "JENNNIIFERRRR!!!!!" with him right there. It was like a sucker punch of humiliation and I was speechless for a few anxiety pounding heart beats.

Just the tiniest amount of time really went by I think, before I figured out how I would respond. I was walking REALLY SLOWLY from the front door to the kitchen to buy time to think. Of course my emotional reaction was "How to I cover for this so he doesn't see even more how sissy and submissive I am?"

But as soon as I "thought" that in my head I knew I was just cooked completely now. I knew that he would tie that back to her calling me "jen" as she had a few times when he was her a few weeks ago. I figured that any attempt at trying to hide the truth of this from him would just make my humiliation worse.

Honestly I was thinking that this was also a kind of a test - weather on purpose by her or not, as in the end she'd wind up judging how I reacted to what she had just done to me. I think if I didn't "own" my sissyness in that moment (by trying to cover it up somehow) she would think I really wasn't 100% committed to being who I am with her, and she would back off. Or she would just make it worse if I tried to deny or hide it and go to an even more extreme level of humiliation. Anyway, I really REALLY don't wan't to let either one of us down like that. She gets off so much on doing this to me, and with her outing me with her friends son now, it's just a whole new level she's taken us to.

The only other person that knows I'm anything other than an average male is her daughter who is so awesomely open about LGBT / "alternative lifestyles". She knows that I'm a cross dresser/TG. But I don't really know for sure to what extent what more her daughter knows about me.

So Miss's daughter has seen me en-femme, but her friend's son hasn't. So far he's just seen her treating me like a submissive "pussy whipped" little man. Now that I think of it, she might have even used that very phrase in front of him - little man! OH! And she told me he noticed that my legs are shaved! She said that I have them shaved because she wants them that way. True-true, but I like them shaved too of course :-)

That was Friday night. Saturday he was off to visit his friend, and we didn't expect him back until later at night.

Saturday we ran our errands, and I think I was in a man-shirt that did a better job of hiding my bra straps ;-)

We found a cute sun dress and skirt, and picked up some seamed stockings. I couldn't wait to get home to try the cloths on and get my makeup done for some quality girl time.

I tried on the sun dress for her (LOL - and I) and it looked great! So I went back and put on my makeup, and got into the other skirt and a top. Miss was taking a quick nap so I just started on prepping dinner. It wasn't 10 minutes after I had gotten dressed that the door bell rang - ARRGHHH!

I woke her up and asked her to tell whoever was at the door that I was busy. Well guess who it was? Her friend's son had come back way earlier than expected.

She yelled back to me "Billy's back!" And she told him I had been taking a nap. I wonder if he saw the half cut zucchini, squash, etc. that was in obvious mid-cutting board preparation?

Did he hear the bathroom sink going as I was frantically trying to get all the makeup off?

Well nothing was said, and I probably got back out of the bathroom after 15 minutes. Did he think anything of that I wonder?

The two of them went outside for a smoke while I continued on dinner. I went and joined them for a couple of minutes, but I don't really know him so I feel awkward like a 3rd wheel. She spends a lot of time at his house visiting so they have things in common that I have no clue about, so I usually just listen to them talking and hope there is something in the conversation that I can join in on.

Later that night we watched a movie (really bad B-movie), and I guess I was out of hand (drinking was involved). She told me I was showing off and I wasn't taking the hint to stop. She was definitely continuing on with the embarrassment of me in front of him.

She cut me off as punishment - no orgasm for me.

Your bra straps are showing

Miss has a few expectations for me, one of which is I am to wear a bra (under my boy shirt) when we are out doing our weekend shopping and errands.

This has been in place for some time now. On these days I try to pick a shirt that will not show the straps, but sometimes she tells me what shirt to wear.

I should point out that while I'm out like this I'm probably 90% of the time paranoid about if people can see them or not. So I try to lean forward to hide the outline of the bra from the front view if the majority of people around are in front of me, and I lean backward a bit if people are behind us, like if we are walking down the aisles of a store, to hide the straps over my back and shoulders.

So a couple of weeks ago we were out shopping. I was in a bra, and I had picked the shirt thinking it was hiding my bra straps pretty well....

Until we got to the local home improvement/DIY store.

We were looking for some hardware we needed, and as is often the case at this DIY store, the employees are always asking you if you need help finding anything.

So Miss was behind me, and she just at that random moment noticed that my bra straps were very obviously visible, and she told me so in a very humiliatingly tease-ey way. Something along the lines of "Oh I can REALLY see your straps in that shirt! I think people can surly be able to notice them!"

She said this was a big turn-on for her, which made me feel good in that submissive "I'm your property to do as I'm told" way. I did feel really good that what was going on was getting her off, while at the same time panic'd about how I was exposed and pretty much completely mortified.

So now I had to be 100% "defensive"about keeping my back from the line of sight of everyone around! I was very embarrassed and more afraid then ever at being noticed.

We were continuing to walk slowly down one end of that aisle looking for what we needed. I saw two employees had rounded the corner of the opposite end of the aisle, and I was sure they were going to ask if we needed help.

Miss was behind me, in front of them as they walked towards us and I kept a corner of my eye looking back to try to keep her between us and them, blocking their line of sight.

I'm sure that Miss would not be happy at all to know I was using her to block their view of me. I think she has the mindset along the lines of "This is who you are, I like and want you in a bra while we're out, and I know that inside you love wearing a bra in public. So what if people notice as I like it when you get embarrassed and humiliated, so deal with it!" I should also mention that more and more she calls me "jen" when we're out.

Anyway, back to the story, as the employees passed her, I turned so that my side was to them instead of my back, but one of them walked a little past me, so my back was to him. I turned all the way around to face them (leaning forward now to try to hide the front of the bra from them). Yes they asked if we needed any help finding anything. I said no we found what we were looking for.

They did seem to take their time moving on after that, as usually the employees here kind of keep moving in the same direction they were already heading to find their next victim to assist, but these two reversed direction and went back down towards the other end of the aisle, and I noticed that they looked back a couple of times.

It looked like they were talking to each other in that "don't wan't the customer to know what we're talking about" manner from their body language.

I asked Miss if she thought they noticed and she said yes she thought so! Ugghhh!

I was totally humiliated and just wanted to finish so we could leave. But I also felt proud in a way, that I had endured something so embarrassing and humiliating in public that Miss got a huge kick out of.

Slutty school girl look

Every now and then I stop in at a local discount clothing store during my lunch break to shop for girl clothes. A couple of weeks ago I found an absolutely must-have school girl skirt.

This really got both our motors running Saturday.

And we had a good taste of summer weather last week. I wasn't expecting to be starting to work on my tan yet but I got a really good jump on it. I wish I had a picture to post but that will have to come later.