But it really was a very good time, and we had great seats.

So I mentioned in a prior post Miss was shooting for an edgier look for herself, not feminine girly, but feminine, well, butch-like for lack of a better term. And we had found a pink ladies top and some other women's clothes for myself. Everything I was wearing was women's clothes - a real thrill for me, even if I wasn't going en-femme. Basically we were flipping our sexual identities for the night!
My outfit, yes, I was definitely going to come off as a gay man :-D Miss of course was dying of happiness at that fact, and how nervous, uncomfortable, insecure, and awkward I was feeling.
A few weeks ago we had each bought a purse (my first purse). I had assumed that it was for a future outing en-femme, but as we were getting ready to leave for the show, she asked about me wearing it. I was surprised when she asked and I probably stammered, embarrassed when I told her I didn't realize it was for tonight. Anyway, I got over my apprehension and we were set to go!
Here I am (well, most of me) ------>
Walking from the parking lot to the venue I didn't catch too many looks our way. Getting in the gate was fun - I had to open my purse so it could be searched (another first!)
Then we had the metal detector wand search. Miss was looking at me while I went through that, and she said the guy wanding me (while I was facing away from him) made "one of those looks" - like I was flaming gay! Well to his credit I'm probably a little bi ;-)
Other than that, we got no detectable notice from employees.
We did meet a fun and interesting group of ladies while outside. Miss was noticing one that was dressed up in a style similar to that of pin-up-girls from the 40s. That's another look she'd like to try out. We were next to them and I pretty much think my 'gayness' was an ice-breaker for them to start up a conversation with us. They were having a REALLY good time - lots of laughing and joking.
When we were all talking a couple of them cozied up to me and were very flirty with me. I guess it's true that gay men get all the attention from the girls? I was not expecting anything like that, let me tell you! Miss said some women like to be flirty with gay men as they can have fun with it but don't have to worry about it going anywhere :-)
Pin-up girl nicknamed me "stripes" as my shirt was pink with white stripes. It was all fun and good, and we bumped into them a couple of more times during the show in the food and restroom areas.
Another cherry on top to this was that I found out via text message from Miss's mom the next day, that Miss had shared the "stripes" part of the trip with her parents. She showed them a picture of me in my so called "80s" outfit from behind, and told them the pants were women's...but they actually looked unisex. And she told her parents about the girls thinking I was gay. Her mom just said that I was a "good sport". Hmmmm, I think Miss is prepping her parents for when I come out one day? Could be confusing to them whenever that happens - based on this they might think I'm a T-girl that likes boys, when I'm a T-girl that likes girls.
We had some interesting characters sitting next to us. On one side was a married couple. The husband was American, I'd say in his late 50s. His wife was from Mexico, I'd say in her early 20s, and spoke no English. To the right was a single guy. He pretty much ignored us the whole time, and when Miss went to use the ladies room leaving me alone, he just glared at me like I was some kind of freak. That really didn't bother me, in fact I kind of drunk his scowling all in and owned it. Oh, there were some girls in the row behind us that were nice and we chatted briefly with them.
Over all, I definitely tried to go all in with my mannerisms and presentation to match my "look". Miss wanted to let the single guy next to us know she was taken by us kissing - but hey that blew my cover! And she also was a bit miffed that I wasn't copping feels from her, but I was trying to go with my look!
Jen, what a blast. I had so much fun reading your story of the concert. I love how you relate your nervousness and insecurities but end up drinking it all in, beginning with purse that Miss had you bring!
ReplyDeleteI''m looking forward to reading this story again tomorrow just to soak it all in. Your concert story is like a good movie that you want to watch again to enjoy all the nuances to their fullest. You and Miss certainly got a lot out of that event, not to mention rockin' with Joan Jett and the Blackhearts. Congrats on a special night.
Scott
Thank you Scott!
DeleteI like to try to describe what is happening and how I'm feeling as best I can, because these experiences are so different from any I've had before I want to capture the memories.
This was a fun post...I really enjoyed it. You're right that Miss could be prepping her folks for the inevitable "coming out." But it doesn't matter. What will be, will be.
ReplyDeleteEnjoy it...
Mandy
That is such an exciting, fun story! Luv the look and purse. I'm sure you were nervous as heck! sara e
ReplyDeleteI was so nervous! But it was so much fun.
DeleteThis was different than going out en-femme because people would know it was me because of no makeup or wig.
I did do this again wearing all girl clothesfor a concert we went to a couple of months ago but Miss forgot her purse so she borrowed mine.