Hamburger Mary's Long Beach - Tgirl Saturday dance party

We made it to another Tgirl Nights dance party earlier this month.

We always have a great time there. The atmosphere is great, and so are the food and drinks!

Thank you Jamie Jameson (in the picture with me just below), and Hamburger Mary's for providing a great place to get out and have fun!

 

Black and pink!

Just something fun to wear for Miss :-P

 

Quick post, electrolysis, and life's been busy!

I haven't had much to post recently due to the usual priorities in life taking precedence. Miss and I have been having a little fun now and then, but we haven't made it out much these past weeks. We did get to a concert for her birthday, and I'll try to write about that in a later post.

I haven't shared this yet, but I've been making pretty regular electrolysis appointments for a few months now. 3 or 4 per month, and I shoot for 2 hour sessions when they are available.

Laser isn't a good option for me as my facial hair is mostly white, and laser works best on darker hair. In fact, most of my dark hair is already gone now! Without the dark hair, I no longer have to take steps to conceal that awful beard shadow when I do my makeup. I had been using the technique of putting red/orange lipstick on my upper lip and chin area which contrasts with the blueish tint of the beard shadow. No More!!!!!!! This is such a great milestone for me, and now applying makeup is much easier and faster.

The overall improvement to how my face looks is noticeable. It's sooooo much smoother!

For those of you have gone through this, it's more painful in the areas around the lips. But all of the pain and discomfort are absolutely worth it. I did just pick up some numbing cream and will see how that helps. Regardless, I can't wait to finish off this part of transition :-D  I look forward to these appointments with tons of excitement. My level of happiness and hope for a future as a woman has never been greater!

Anyway, I hope you all are enjoying yourselves!

And now a few recent pictures...

 

Micro-skirt fun-time

I picked up a new micro-skirt to spice things up a bit :-P

Miss absolutely loved it. She calls me an attention whore every mow and then, and I admit she's got my number on that one! I do need to work on my facial expressions a bit more. I try for sultry sexy every now and then but it's just not looking near good enough for me.

                  

After I put my makeup on I asked Miss "Thong or crotchless?" It ended up being both - LOL!

 

It's Spring!

We haven't been able to go out much the last month or so, but we did make it back to Hamburger Mary's this past weekend. A new first for us, Miss and I shared a restroom stall for the first time - it was quite a moment - LOL!

I have been looking for more casual tops and skirts lately, in the hopes that we can get out more in girl mode as the days start to get to a more comfortable temperature. Too much of my wardrobe is fancy-smancy club wear. Anyway, we're almost there with the nice weather, although it looks like this weekend will be a little cloudy and rainy (we welcome the rain too!)

Most of our trips to the club I try to dress up sexy, but I figured this time I'd try for a more casual look. I switched from red to pink for my toe nail polish, a teal miniskirt, and a pretty white top I found to go with the skirt. I rounded it off with my white wedge sandals that Miss loves to see me in. I was very happy with the look - go Spring!

                           

I still need some modeling lessons, especially for pictures of my derriere!

                                                              

And just one more picture, yes, slut-wear :-D

Take care everyone - Muahhh!

Slutty trashy role reversal? I love it!

Lately Miss has wanted me in sexy slutty trampy outfits.

Let me tell you that I don't have a single complaint with that!!!!

All the sexy porn that I've enjoyed so much over the years, the sexy trashy slutty outfits I wanted my girl partners to dress up in for my...enjoyment... I now get to dress up in :-P

And to have a partner that wants that from me is just an incredible reversal of roles that makes me feel soooo good!

While I'm not the most sexy girl out there, it sure is fun!

There were more risque than these, but you probably get the idea.

Am I a person in transition from Male to Female, or am I a Sissy Kinky Slut?

I realize that what I'm sharing on this blog about myself (primarily) covers two aspects of who I am. Of course I am other things too, but I doubt they are interesting for anyone else to read.

For example, my Super Bowl Sunday shopping trip's intent was to be a "successful" M2F day out en-femme. On that day I felt I was looking good enough to pass. Well in the end I wasn't 100% successful at passing, and many people picked me out.

The not-passing as well as I thought put me into my fearful and anxiety mode, but I actually need to get used to handling that. Unfortunately that is a part of being trans for many of us. I'm thankful for all the media attention that has been growing around transgender issues. The more it's out in the public eye, the more people will become accustomed to us. I think improvements in gay and lesbian acceptance were helped by media attention too.

Now, Sissy Kinky Slut... I never had a self-image that I was attractive as a male. I never felt like I was "all that." Not even the remote concept of that entered my mind. Of course I always wanted my partners to be sexy/slutty, as that's what pushed my buttons. Miss has told me that back in our high school days (when she had me in the friend zone), that she did think I had sexy legs and booty. She loved that I wore OP (Ocean Pacific)  shorts. I loved that she wore Dolphin shorts!!! When she would bend over I loved it because they would ride up and I could see her panties. Skipping forward to today, Miss has a huge additional dimension of attraction for me, the butch Domme dimension :-P 

Ocean Pacific (OP) corduroy shorts

Dolphin shorts

I still feel the same way about my attractiveness as man, but now I realize that I feel attractive, sexy, and desirable when I'm in sexy slutty women's clothes and lingerie. And I have never-ever felt that way en-homme! So, I found my sexual identity and satisfaction - finally. It's almost like I found my G-spot after 30 years or so.

I'm also submissive by nature, and want and need the firm direction of a dominant woman. I am so lucky to have the woman in my life to make that come true. At times I go out in en-homme mode but in women's jeans and shorts (my legs are always shaved). I wear a bra that often is easy for people to see the straps. I wear a little bit of pink lipstick. This feeds my submissive humiliation side when people notice. And Miss loves my humiliation when she sees people doing a double take on me. 

So go figure! I am working on my path to full time transition, to be accepted and to pass as a woman, but at the same time I get off on public humiliation when I'm in boy mode but wearing women's clothing.

Anyone else out there share feelings like these? I'd love to hear! 

Take care everyone!