Results from http://bdsmtest.org/

I guess this is where I stand with this particular BDSM survey

== Results from http://bdsmtest.org/ ==
100% girl/boy
100% Degradation receiver
100% Submissive
99% Bondage receiver
96% Pet
93% Masochist
86% Slave
86% Primal (Prey)
83% Exhibitionist
80% Experimentalist
79% Brat
75% Voyeur
61% Ageplayer
25% Non-monogamist
22% Switch
7% Primal (Hunter)
4% Vanilla
0% Master/Mistress
0% Brat tamer
0% Sadist
0% Bondage giver
0% Dominant
0% Daddy/Mommy
0% Degradation giver
0% Owner
0% All-Rounder
See my results online at http://bdsmtest.org/result.php?id=752038

Gettin' Jiggy Wit It

We got CRAZY! Soooo crazy on the dance floor!

Last Saturday we made it back to the LGBT friendly club Hamburger Mary's for the first time in three or four months for Jamie Jameson's monthly TGirl Saturday dance party. Our summer schedule really different and crazy as far as little free weekend time and we just couldn't get a night free to make 'til now.

We got ready, with our usual preparations, with Miss doing both our nails very pretty as always :-D

My outfit was a black top, white and black skirt, black polka-dot thigh-high stockings  (my toes were painted red), 'featuring' black thong panties (LOL!), and the white tipped finger nails Miss had put on for me (there is a whole process to what she does there).

The top was a little different than the picture below and I wore different jewelry, but the rest of the outfit was the same.

I've gotten more confident going
out to the club in shorter skirts!

Oh, and I have to say that Miss was looking dynamite sexy herself, in a blue lightly sequined top with cutouts at the shoulders and ripped blue jeans - Yummy!!! 

It's a real thrill to be able to dress sexy and be out with Miss as girlfriends. I can't tell you how joyfully happy that makes me feel. I get a big dose of hope that I'll be full time one day :-D

We get to the club a little after 8 and park across the street. I actually like that better than parking in the garage behind the club as it's a lot more public and I just don't get enough "out in public" time while I'm en-femme.

We have our IDs checked at the entrance and are escorted to a table with a great view of the dance floor and the overall club. We order dinner which as always was just delicious (I had salmon with vegetables). Of course we also got going with Margarita's.... and we kept them coming.

While we are eating the music is going and people are starting to get out and dance. About 9:30 Jamie kicks off the party proper and introduces the featured dancers, and the dance floor starts to get more crowded. We both take turns using the restroom so we don't have to worry about loosing our table if we are both gone (but I'm sure we wouldn't have). No bathroom issues here - I've never been in the men's room at the club - hehehe!

After that Miss says she is ready to dance. I suggest that we get our picture taken first on the "Red Carpet" but she is insistent that now is the time to dance - so off we go!!!

So we are dancing with each other and having a great time. I think I'm better at dancing in heels than walking in them, but I don't think I had any major faux pas in the walking department - at least not that I can remember!

Here is where the 'Jiggy comes in. And that's almost a literal 'Jiggy, as I'm about to try and explain. 

A guy works his way towards us while we are dancing. He was very polite entirely by the way. He starts to dance next to us, so I think cool, I'll be friendly and dance a little bit with him. This is the 2nd or 3rd guy that I've ever danced with by the way. 

It was obvious that Miss and I were dancing together, and he also moved towards Miss and danced with her too. So basically the three of us were dancing together at one point. And he was so polite that he even asked if it was ok for him to dance between us, which we both said 'yes' of course.

So I am having a great time, we're all dancing together and he's taking turns with both of us. As he and I are dancing we start to get 'Jiggy! I mean REALLY JIGGGGGGY!!!! It's Dirty Dancing time. He starts to dance all sultry and sexy with the whole facial expression thing going on. I get into it and encourage it a little with how I'm dancing. He gets more confident and ups his game with me at this point. I'm thinking to myself - Oh my god, he's really turned on by this! My inner attention whore is both amazed & incredibly flattered, but also in disbelief!

Things continue to get more and more uninhibited. Did I mention that Miss and I are both pretty inebriated from all the alcohol we had been drinking? He dances closer to me, and I put those sexy nails that Miss did for me to good use. I teased his shoulder and back from behind with my nails while he was dancing with Miss. He has a button down shirt that is mostly unbuttoned. He backs into me a little and I reach around him and start to tease his bare chest. I'm thinking he's really enjoying this, don't you?

He switches back to dancing facing me. At this point Miss starts giving me the "thumbs up" sign so I know she is giving me the OK for what's going on, but I'm not really sure where her line is with as far how far this should go. So in "dance style/fashion", one of us (I don't remember who) starts to straddle the other's leg in that sexy dancing teasing/pelvis grinding way (but no contact at this point that I remember.) I am looking at Miss and she's still giving me "thumbs up" so I go with it and we are just going crazy. 

He turns back to dance with Miss and I can tell he's dancing close to her. He did that for a while, then he backed towards me and started to press his butt back into me as we danced. I'm going with this crazy moment still, pressing my pelvis back against him, teasing him with my nails. I'm lost in the moment (and the tequila) at this point but I'm still looking at Miss to see if I'm going too far or not for her, but she is smiling and all is good. 

Then our man starts to feel me up, running his hand up along the inside of one of my thighs to the top of my stockings. I'm thinking I hope I don't get aroused! Well, I'm letting this happen, in some kind of attention-whore-tequila-shock, so I just keep dancing and letting it play out because I have never been in this kind situation before. Not ever, not even as a guy. As a guy I never had the "guts" to dance with a girl and feel her up as I "knew" she would immediately reject me. But as a girl I have to confess that I was eating this attention up.

OK, so guess what, he eventually goes for the prize. Very gently he works his way all the way up my skirt and starts to fondle me along the sides of my thong and then underneath it. I am totally at a loss as to what to do. In (flattered/amazed?) disbelief! Other than a doctor, only one other time has a male touched my privates. That was a friend/fellow Cub Scout when I think I was 8 years old (but that's another story).

Eventually he turns to me and asks me if he can suck me off!!!! The first time he asked I just smiled not knowing what to say. Then he asked again and I kept smiling kindly and said I'm sorry and shook my head. 

What I didn't learn until later was that he was trying to get 'Jiggy with Miss too! He was trying to feel her up, but she doesn't have a 'Jiggy! He asked her if he could suck her off also! Going for the threesome? Miss told him she was sorry but she didn't have one of "those." Butt she did tell me she was flattered that he thought she was a trans person!

I came to my senses a bit, knowing this wasn't going to go any further (and not wanting it to), so Miss and I took our leave of the dance floor and headed up to the Red Carpet to get our pictures taken, and we left the club after that.

This was a wild experience let me tell you! Miss and I both had a great time. OMG!!!!

I hope 'our man' didn't feel lead on.

A bit more Q & A from sara e

Thanks for keeping up with great comments and questions sara!

Panties
Let's see.... Miss does like to have me on edge when we go out in public when I'm in boy-mode, but she hasn't (yet!) pushed me to wear panties that would stand out and be very visible in my thin white shorts. I wear panties all the time except on Tidy-Whitey Tuesday. Every Tuesday I have to wear that horrible men's underwear - ecchhh!!! For panties I prefer bikini and hipster style, but if I'm sexing it up at the house for Miss, or we are going out dancing, I'll go with a thong for sure!

Music
We do love music, but we don't have any real standards. Neither of us have good singing voices so we don't often sing along to our favorites. Yes we like Katy Perry's "I kissed a girl" and we are big 80's fans so Cyndi Lauper's "Girls just want to have fun" gets us grooving, and "She-bop" gets the booties moving pretty good. Yes every now and then I give a shot at twerking - she seems to enjoy that :-)

Attraction
When I was young I was attracted to boobs. Pure and simple. I still am, and Miss teases me that when I do get them I'm going to be non-stop one hand on the boobs, the other on the crotch. Rinse and repeat ;-) As far as other body characteristics I find attractive, I'm all over the map. I tend to like fuller figured women, but I see beauty and sexyness in how people dress more than their body type. Of course a sexy and perverted mind is the most sexy thing there is!

Clothes
Clothes with side and back zippers I have just recently realized I really liked! I have a dress with a back zipper that I like the look of. The zipper is obviously larger than needed for functional purposes, it's a part of the styling. The look is very mildly "steam punk" like. My impression is that Miss kind of likes style for herself, but a little milder than the full-on style. I am going to have to keep an eye out for more of that style of clothes, it could be really fun!

Oh, and a side-note. I really love shopping now, and wearing clothes as a girl is actually FUN! I never enjoyed anything about boy clothes. Shopping for them is not enjoyable for me, never has been, and I have never felt "attractive" in boy clothes. I realize now that I just love being in girl clothes!

Thank you for the link of that retro romper you like! I have wanted to find one too but haven't yet. There are other pretty patterns on that site too! www.unique-vintage.com

Etc.

I love having a bikini tan, even if it's only the bottom half. I've seen where some girls have a heart shaped inverse-tan line on their bottom, and I'd like to see if next year I can make that happen. It looks like they sell bikini bottoms to do that like the picture above, but I'd probably try to figure out how to make that myself.

I had not thought of tucking my phone in my bra, but it sounds like a good idea as you said. When outside walking I can never hear my phone. So having it on vibrate in a bra sounds like I might have a chance to know someone is calling or texting.

As far as wearing scents or perfume, it's not something Miss nor I have thought about yet. She loves to have body scents for herself, but not really perfume.

Thank you so much sara elise for visiting my blog! I'm glad you got your birthday spanking too, and I would love to hear about your recent travels and punishments (co-ed college visit?) :-)

Take care everyone! HUGS!!!

Responses to some questions from sarah elise & my (natal) birthday

Hi sarah & all of you wonderful blog readers!

Sarah had posted some questions on a recent post (Speed Bumps and Pantyhose), so I thought I'd answer some of them, and also write up an update as I haven't posted in a while. It's been a busy summer with vacation and work and life, so that's my excuse :-)

Update on Shopping
Miss and I went again this past weekend. We shop at local stores usually as there are so many people in our area we don't worry about meeting people we know, but if I'm en-femme we usually go to different stores than our routine. I wore my ladies white shorts that are made of very thin material, where you can see the panties underneath if you try, but I wore nude panties so there really wasn't anything to see. I wore "boat shoes" with socks that were just below the top of the shoes. I keep my legs shaved and right now they are fairly well tanned, and Miss likes me to show them off when we go out so I put on some lotion to give them a little extra shine. I wore a guys polo top with a bra underneath, and a light touch of pink lipstick.

While shopping I was nervous as usual, but I did not really see if anyone noticed me or not in any unusual way. Miss must have been disappointed that no one seemed to notice me wearing a bra, so while we were at the checkout register Miss snapped my bra strap! In the moment, I didn't know if anyone noticed what she did, but Miss told me later that the cashier in the aisle next to us noticed. I had looked around right after Miss first snapped my strap to see if anyone did, and I had made eye contact with that cashier and she gave me quite a disapproving look back - so there you go :-)

Birthday and Sharing Clothes
Miss and I both pick out clothes for me when we shop weather we are together or not. The really fun thing is that we share clothes! It was my birthday last week, and she ended up borrowing one of my dresses to wear. Really at this point I consider anything of mine fair game for her to wear whenever she feels like it. I had picked up a new blue dress and wore that for my birthday. I didn't have time to do my nails as it was a weekeday, but Miss did do my fingernails Saturday night :-D

I'm the model, but this is
the dress Miss wore

My birthday dress
(w/flash - better color)

My birthday dress

OK, so that's the more routine updates... Just one photo left to add from my birthday - yep - got spanked with a hairbrush. Just short of 50 hard smacks! The "M" brand is just a week old in this picture, not all the scabbing has come off yet. Miss made it larger than it had been before, and I really like it!

Birthday Debauchery
OK, so I haven't posted too much about our kinky side (branding aside), but also last weekend Miss tried out some new toys on me that we just picked up for our Nova Solid State Violet Wand  (it works great for us!) The new electrodes were a lot of fun for us both (I of course was on the receiving end). I don't have any pictures from this, but here are the attachments she used on me. The flogger electrode was by far the more painful one. You don't actually "hit" with it, you drag it across the body - and the zippity-zap sounds it makes as she moved it across my body were impressive!

Flogger electrode

Curved "Y" electrode

Sex and motivation - spicing it up!?

sara, you posted that your wife seemed to get a little more sexually interested when she had discovered that you were wearing a bra!

"She pulled up my shirt for inspection. My bra was a dark blue w/white polka dots (love that pattern!). She commented that i had a strap that needed straightening, and i only had one clasp on... and fixed them. She made a few comments and laughed a couple times. We went to work, as we normally would! Oh, except for Her one comment about "itty bitty titties" and laughing, as i recall!"

I love the polka dot look too - and Miss does also. It's like 1950's Americana retro looking. She has a white polka dot on dark blue one-piece swimsuit in that style. If you get Betty Boop shorts I'd love to see what they look like!

"She's learned to spank my bottom during sex to get me harder, and to make me perform and give her a more energetic performance! She came... though i did not. Afterwards, she helped me as i lay beside her, getting myself off in my pink nylon panties. A nice night! i certainly feel more submissive after being in a bra."

I feel so much more pretty, sexy and relaxed when I am in female mode. My submissive side isn't directly tied to weather I'm en-femme or en-homme, but I do enjoy sex much much more when en-femme, and Miss does too. As for Miss, I think she is sometimes much more dominant and aggressive in bed when I am dressed up and in makeup :-P And yes, when she gets rough when we are having sex it gets me much more turned on. A little tity-torture, some pinching and biting here and there, some choking, it's all good!

OK, that's a wrap for now - my best to all of you out there in the blogosphere - have fun!

Speed bumps and pantyhose

One day I was in Miss's car and she was driving down my back alley, probably taking me home. She has a very fun and adventurous soul which I dearly dearly love.

There were speed bumps in this alley, and she raced over them in defiance of the higher speeds that they are intended to prevent ;-)

After speeding over a set of those bumps, she made a comment about how good it feels to be wearing pantyhose under jeans when you drive over things like speed bumps and train tracks. Well I was instantly aroused that she would share such a woman-only thing with me. I probably responded leering-ly with something like "OOOOH, How good does it feel?" She probably responded with something like "You'll never know!" just to make me jealous. And I was.

So yes, what a tease she is! And she's reminded me since that she did that kind of thing a few times back in the day, but I never realized it then. She did it because she wanted to mess with my head. She also said she didn't know what to do with me back then, having stuck me perpetually into the dreaded Friend Zone. She said she probably would have treated me badly if we would have dated back then.

I was never smart enough to recognize any cues that a girl might show that she is interested in me. It was pointed out to me by a couple of women I knew over the years that other women were checking me out or flirting, but I never picked up on it.

A little bit of dominance goes a long way

It's a moment of celebration, and of disappointment, when Miss f**ks one of her toys to death :-D

Well it happened again last week. She broke the news of its demise right after we were getting started. It definitely broke the mood for the evening :-(

She explained to me that her favorite sex toy (an egg type), had started cutting in and out on her, likely leaving her quite frustrated and denied in her lustful quest for satisfaction. And at this moment I experienced the very same thing - the mood was killed for both of us. My little soldier, deflated, and in deep dismay ;-) She couldn't help but notice... and remark... on its retreat from within her. A brief wash of humiliation and failure passed through my body :-(

She uses that toy almost every time we are together, I guess it's our version of a threesome? - LOL!

I wasted no time in finding and ordering a replacement, but waiting for that put us "on hold" if you know what I mean. I also ordered a thigh harness for use with a strap-on.

By coincidence they both arrived on the same day (I had ordered them from different suppliers).

Miss sent me an interesting text to let me know they were delivered.

Here is what was inside:

                           

She got a real kick out this let me tell you!

Beginnings with Miss... Part 2, the neighbor

OK, back to the fun you've been waiting for!

What happened between Miss's neighbor and I? Did I loose something? ;-)
I was walking over to Miss's house to see if she was there and to hopefully hang out with her for the evening. I'm sure I was being cautious to also see if her mother or brother were there, as I probably would have passed if they were, certainly if her mother was there. Yes I was that shy!

No one was home. These were 4-plex apartments, with Miss on the bottom floor, and her neighbor directly across the courtyard on the 2nd floor. Their patios, front doors and living room windows faced each other across the courtyard.

Her neighbor must have noticed me, and she probably tried to be helpful and called down from her patio to me about when she last saw Miss. I am sure that the 3 of us hung out at least a few times prior, maybe even had some wine or beer together. At this point in time I was probably a Sophomore, 14 years old? Miss would have been 17-18, and her neighbor was mid-to-late 20s I think. Basically she was twice my age, with a 6 year old to boot.

She must have invited me to come up, maybe to allow me to wait in case Miss might return soon.

I digress... watching TV, early porn
Her neighbor and I hung out, and I remember watching T.V. We were watching a really bad conservative politics talk show show called Wally George (on a UHF channel). It was so bad it was good! I'm sure I found it thanks to trying to catch naked ladies in soft porn movies on one of the very early pay-UHF TV stations - ONTV.

Of course I was watching this on a 13" black and white TV, with no decoder/descrambler  box. At the time it felt like if you kept adjusting the tuning knob you could "improve" the scrambled picture, but I never got more then a few seconds of any discernible boobies. This is what I would get off to (but would have been black and white):

Finally getting to the point - Her neighbor
So we are drinking a little bit, getting some laughs. I have no memory of any attraction to her neighbor. I'm totally hot for Miss all day long, every day. Her neighbor is in a dress or skirt I'm sure. That's always what she seemed to be wearing. I wish I could remember what broke the ice...

What I do remember is sitting on her couch. It was a really low couch, where my knees seemed to be too high, at chest level with my feet flat on the ground. She is walking towards me. She seemed very tall due to that couch. I remember feeling nervous and intimidated as she approached me (submissive, and yes at 14 I am a virgin still, but that's going to change). The hem of her skirt seemed a little higher than I had ever previously noted, maybe also due to the low couch. It was just above her knees, and I noticed her legs, probably for the first time since I'd known her.

She stood in front of me as I sat on the couch, somehow we had already broken the ice. She then straddled me on the couch, her on top, her basically kneeling on top of me. I think I still had my clothes on. I was afraid to put my hands on her. I probably felt like if I made a mistake she would get upset with me and I'd get into some kind of serious trouble, she'd kick me out, who knows?

My next memory is of being in the same position with her on that couch, but my clothes were off. She was still straddling me in the dress, but she did not have any panties on. She was teasing my crotch by rubbing herself (her va-jay-jay) over my boy parts. I had no clue what to do! But I tried to press up to her as she was rubbing me as it obviously was feeling good. And I absolutely was not going to put my hands down between her legs - I'm totally afraid if I do anything like that I will ruin this. I had no clue what to do with them anyway, and as you will read next, I didn't know at all what to do with my boy part either :-|

She is still on top, we're basically dry humping. Sorry but I don't know how to better say that! Eventually my boy part seemed to find the girl part place it should try to push into. We are both "working it", and since she hasn't reacted badly yet, I decide it's time to push it all the way in. As I do so it's more difficult than I expected. A VERY short time passes and she knows I'm not going to figure it out. She says something like "Is that where you like it? It might be easier if you try starting up higher instead." OOOOPS! Wrong hole! I was mortified. She takes the bull by the horn so to speak and guides me into the proper place. That is the end of what  I remember that night.

So there we have it - my first time. We continued to have fun for a while longer, but I think she had a boyfriend the whole time that I wasn't aware of for a while. Maybe she dumped me?

Epilogue
Miss and her neighbor were good friends for a while. In fact, Miss was in her wedding years later. She married the boyfriend I just mentioned!

While this will be the subject of a future post, Miss and I did end up getting together when I was about 18. She told me recently that leading up to that her neighbor had told her that I was really good with foreplay, and Miss just had to check that out I guess ;-)

Miss eventually lost contact with her, but did find her on Facebook and sent her a message that we got back together. Her old friend and neighbor didn't reply, probably not wanting to risk her husband learning about her little distraction from the past.

I hope you've enjoyed this post! I've certainly enjoyed reminiscing.

Take care!