What's been up with me?
It's good to finally get a post in after quite a time off here in the blogosphere. I have had quite a few big life changes going on. One of the more significant ones was a change of jobs. And that is primarily what has kept me from posting updates here these past few months. I am still learning the in's and out's of it, so my mental focus is still very much on getting up to speed with my new employment.
Background
Sorry to disappoint, but Miss and I are not very big sporting fans. I was in my earlier years, but not any longer. I do still love going to an occasional Hockey or Baseball game, but these days my enjoyment is purely about the entertainment that comes from seeing and being at a live event. Watching on TV is just not interesting, but being there with all the people is what I really enjoy.
Miss and I mostly have Friday night to Sunday morning's together due to my custody arrangement, but for Super Bowl Sunday I ended up not having my kids, which gave an extra day for Miss and I to spend together. I didn't have many chores to take care of, so we talked about going out (with me en-femme) to run some shopping and other errands.
Also as a result of my custody arrangement (and unavoidable house work), my public en-femme appearances are not at all as frequent as I want them to be. Usually they are limited to just Saturday nights. So this extra time Sunday was truly a marvelous bonus for me!
And now, on to the story...
The day before the Super Bowl was the start of almost a 2 day period of me being able to be en-femme. It's very rare that I get that much time, so I was in heaven! Miss did my nails very pretty, and I got to keep them on from Saturday until Monday morning. I look forward to having my nails done so I can learn how to cook and do normal activities with them on. And I REALLY love being able to give back to Miss a token of my thanks for her doing my nails by running them gently over her back, legs, and other areas of her body when we're laying in bed. She really enjoys that and I love doing it for her.
Miss had a bunch of places that she needed to go to pick up this, that, and the other thing. We hit two different Walmart's (I know, is that crazy!), a small and somewhat trendy specialty grocery store, a smoke shop, and we needed to stop for gas as well. Of course the entirety of our errand running I was very nervous about how well I would pass.
Here is a picture of me from that day:
Walmart #1
At the first Walmart we needed to pick up a prescription. We walked in and I was constantly trying to notice if people were picking up on me. I tried to keep my anxiety under control. My tendency in this situation is to avoid eye contact with passers by which by itself would probably draw attention to myself, so I had to concentrate on being less uptight and let my gaze naturally connect with other shoppers. I think I did ok, but definitely not all the time, and probably was not as natural as I need to be.
We went to the pharmacy, waited in line (I was so nervous!), but the prescription was not filled. We were told that it would be about 15 minutes, so we wandered around the store, walking the isles to kill some time. I was constantly trying to see if people were noticing me, and yes it seemed like they sure were. As nervous and afraid that I was, I just had to suck it up. Eventually we went back to the pharmacy, waited in line with other people for a bit, and picked up the prescription. I should point out that this Walmart is in an area that has a large immigrant population which typically have a strong Catholic representation, which aren't often great LGBT supporters. I know the tide is changing in that regard as time goes by, and I hope I'm not offending anyone with that comment. My point is that I felt like I was not in the "safest" environment to be en-femme. But it all was fine in the end. No one made any mention or comment to me whatsoever. The employees we interacted with were all perfectly fine and I couldn't tell if they noticed me or not.
Fill'er up!
After a bit of a drive, our next stop was to a gas station. I got out and filled up the tank. While standing there I could tell that at least one lady waiting her turn to pull into the island was taking notice of me. I had a little extra exposure time because my first try at using my credit card didn't work and the pump takes a long time before it lets you try again. So I was basically standing there staring at the pump waiting for it to let me try my other card.
Walmart #2
The first Walmart was one we almost never go to, so I wasn't worried about running into anyone we might know (like my ex and our kids, or Miss's family-in-law). The second one is our normal stomping ground. But at this point we're thinking at least we wouldn't run into my ex as she doesn't seem to ever be out too late in the afternoon for her shopping. We go in, get what we were there for, and I really only seemed to catch one or two people taking notice of me. Again the employees were all fine, no one said anything or acted inappropriately towards us.
"Trendy" (small) grocery store
We just had a couple of things to pick up here. I didn't catch anyone looking side-ways at us. The cashier didn't seem to bat an eye either.
Smoke shop
Not my habit, so you can guess who's it might be ;-) And I'm sure I'll get some discipline for even mentioning this when she sees this post - LOL! I had only been there a few times before. In the past I had been served by either an older gentleman that I assume is the owner, or a young girl (20-ish) that dresses very out of the ordinary - think 90's Cyndi Lauper. I was really hoping it was going to be her for obvious reasons - LOL
Miss sent me in alone to pick up her smokes, and as luck would have it it was the young girl. I told her what I wanted and she rang me up. We had a brief little exchange about how it must be half-time because she said she just had a rush of customers. She asked if I knew who was winning and I told her I had no idea, that I wasn't following it. She said she wasn't into sports and I said I wasn't either. I wished her a good rest of the day and headed back to the car.
Well that was it for our shopping trip. No one made an issue of my presentation which is just awesome!
And I have to add that Miss told me there were a fair amount of people that were indeed noticing me and checking me out, and she really got off on that.
My takeaway? I need to get used to this and not care if people make note of me. Time will make this easier I know!
Take care everyone!
